Does anybody else feel like all of the weight gained in recovery goes straight to your love handles/hips and stomach? Cause I’m just so not loving this right now.
The one main thing I don’t like about recovery is that you are still technically anorexic (or bulimic, etc.) but you are changing your eating habits so people see you as a person WITHOUT disordered eating issues. While in reality your mind is going crazy and wondering if you should eat breakfast and how much you should excercise and if throwing this meal up is worth it.
Another crap part about it is the fact that your body gains weight and you no longer have people asking if you’re okay, and commenting “you’re so thin”. instead people say you look so much healthier which you convert in your mind to omg i’m fat and then you get triggered but you have to eat because you are trying to recover but you feel fat when you eat so you try not to but when you don’t you feel so horribly hungry and its all a big sloppy disgusting mess of mountain to climb.